Saturday, 5 April 2014

Goals

Things i need to do to be happy

1. Exercise everyday
Can be as simple as taking the kids for a walk to the park but need to get up and move
2.Play with Neve and Jonah
Neve has become a TV addict and while it was convenient for a while its started becoming a problem. She has started refusing to play instead would rather sit and watch TV. however if the TV doesnt get turned on she will grizzle briefly then find something else to do. May mean needing to provide more activities for her and be more hands on but this can only be a good thing for both us.
3. Pray - Bless food , Pray as a family, Pray as a couple and most importantly pray by myself
Recognise the blessings I have and acknowledge them daily. I want to strengthen my relationship with my Heavenly Father
4. Read scriptures
Need to know and understand them for myself so that I can teach Neve and Jonah
Realise that this is a huge resposibility that will mainly be mine as they are with me most of the day
5. Eat Well
Provide my family with healthy food options - dont give in to temption of convenience


Monday 3/6/13

So many things have happened in the year since my last post. My little boy is now 18mths old and my baby girl is 3. Both are still gorgeous beautiful little people and never cease to amaze me. We have just moved into our new place and are loving being back in our own space. JD has worked so hard to get us here. Im so grateful for his strength and level headedness without which I'd be truly lost.
But its funny how I only ever want to write when things are bothering me. The thing that's got me awake at 5 in the morning blogging is not my beautiful family or lovely home. Its past friendships. The failing in which has me questioning my personal integrity and worth as a person. I love many of the benefits of technology. Including being able to write this very post. But one truly troubling thing for self doubters like me is that you get to see how lives have moved on without you in it. I wonder why I am so bothered by this. I guess its hard to be dismissed. When I joined the church I lost friends. Not drastically but as you change and no longer have common interests in much harder to keep up friendships. Years later I wonder why these friendships were not maintained. Its crippling how self-conscious interactions with my old friends make me feel. I don't know why there is a such a strong desire to have it acknowledged that I am a better person now. Maybe because they seem to be, that is from skewed view I have through Facebook.  I wonder do they feel the same? Maybe. Maybe not.

March 12 2014

It really does end up being quite a few hair cuts between blogs. Was reminded of this as a friend of mine recently posted a new blog in which she talked about her birthing experiences. It was really beautiful and inspiring. I only seem to blog the innate ramblings of my simple mind. Definitely not as eloquent.
Quick update on the fam. Jonah boy is 2, is toilet training (ugh, hate this necessary evil) and talks ALOT. He is very sweet. People often tell me how gorgeous they think he is and how funny his voice is and the way he runs is so cute. It's more shoulders and arms then legs. I have to agree with them. He is awesome.

My beautiful Nevie girl is at Kindy this year. She is loving it. Can't believe how quickly she is growing up. She loves to sing Let it Go from the movie frozen. She loves to hear adventure stories before she goes to sleep. She is a very skilled negotiator if she is trying to talk someone into her way of thinking. She hates all her shoes and we argue every time she needs to put something on her feet in order to leave the house. We also clash over doing her hair. Im so proud of her. She is amazing. I'm sad that I spend less and less one on one time with her and that the shift away from me being her whole world is already well and truly underway.

Jake is the most patient and loving man on the planet to put up with me on a daily basis. It can be a struggle to find time to be together that doesn't involve discussing parenting issues, managing the house and relaying upcoming commitments noted on the calendar. The daily grind makes me forget sometimes to stop and actually look at the incredible man he is and realise how deeply I love him and how lost I'd be with out him. He works so hard to provide for our family. Too hard sometimes and we miss out on actually spending time with him. I love the way his eyes light up when he's playing with Neve and Jonah, you can see how much they melt him, which in turn melts me.

I am busy trying to balance commitments right now. Currently I'm working, studying, serving at church and most importantly raising a young family. I feel as though whatever I  am currently doing is keeping me away from doing something that is equally pressing.  Jake helps me through my neurotic worrying and tries to keep me positive and on task. I'm very grateful to him for this. I know it must be tiring talking me through the trantrum of " its all too much!" and "I'm failing at everything" as I get a small taste of being in his shoes when Neve loses it. Its a very good thing he loves me. I hope I never forget how lucky I am that he does.


One Positive Thing

Putting theory into practice.

Watched TEd talk called The happy secret to better work.

Basic gist was that people think that the key to happiness is success. The talk suggested this was backwards and should be the key to success is happiness. It listed stats showing that if your brain feels positive as opposed to negative, neutral or stressed it performs 37% better.

Currently I am struggling to get focused and make progress with my uni work. So thought I'd procrastinate a little longer and put this theory into practice.

The talk described things to do to help keep your brain happy.
First step Journal positivity - hence the blog - so need to name at least one positive thing that happened today. Hard to do when you have been focused on negative so going tohave to try and list off a few.

* Sat at the table with Jake for breakfast
* Jonah came and played with me in bed this morning while Jake was at basketball
* Coloured in with Neve
* Made neve laugh and smile after a tantrum - which then made me smile
* Got some washing done and the dishes washed and packed away.
* Had a nice dinner at Aunty Margaret and Uncle Karls house


The other suggestions included daily exercise - meditation to allow you to focus  and - service or pay it forward where you actively do one nice thing for someone else.

Now this is done for the night, I will attempt to use my refreshed and positively reset brain to complete some more of my assignment.

SD